hey guys..finally blogging
today in a fairly good moood.
yay!going to watch persepolis today on youtube when i get back
ah well
i have a new url
but havent posted
will let you guys know when i start on it
give me sometime kay? like 5 days?
okay anyway it is:
www.cityscapesandneonskies.blogspot.com
so you people go read there from 5-6 days onward okay
and maybe later if i procrestinate.haha.

today was okay in school
was kinda dreading something but it turned out better than fine.
me and paige before dep were talking about ourselves hating to be dao-ed
yea.it kinda sucks when people dao you,i mean.
paige is daoing someone and someone is daoing me.
isnt life just a wonderful vicious cycle?
ah shuddup.heh. sets and probability is like FINALLY making some sense to my head
oh well.have been having a weakness for the wonderous snacks in my kitchen
have been snacking ALOTTTT so yea.id better watch it.what can i do right?
okay so YAY today no interact.gosh.
its so funny that it is actually a joy.
ah well. a happier post.thank gosh for good-er days.
cya

YAY.just finished learning how to play Thunder by Boys Like Girls on my guitar.
coolness.heh.
and am suddenly motivated to start a youtube acc.
just viewed some and they were really good, doing covers of songs and stuff.
well,maybe.after all the exam stuff.i might try.
heh.trying to pick up more songs.so that would be pretty cool.
wish me and my guitar some luck after you read this.
hee.cya
and isa, after toying around with the song and the guitar, i am smiling.

RUNNING AWAY WOULD SERIOUSLY MAKE THINGS ALOT WORST than it already is.

sorry for making you guys"worried"(ERMS) about me.
just stuff.
in my heart i guess it isnt the people that get me down in spirits.
but it is this thing that i have been trying to run away from.
i dont have any specific legitimate reasons or excuses as to why i cant do certain things.
its just me.
i dont know why i cant help myself.
its only natural that i run from something i dont want to see.
something i dont want to do.
but i am not supposed to do stuff like that;behave in this way.
guess all the self-confidence just flew out of the window.
just waiting for it to take a trip round the world and come smashing in my face.
well at least i found something that is SUPER FREAKING THERAPUTIC.
haha,its singing.
nothing new,but simply yea,i have all the time.
as for drama, i will see.
i like it alot
i dont want to be a quiter or a coward
i know my actions are trying to steer me toward that.
but well.i wouldnt let that happen.

thanks guys for all the tags and love.and hugs.
for listening and allowing me to do what i love most when i am down and dont want to say a thing.
den,thanks for thee compliment aft library duty.
it did help,abit.

THURSDAY.FREE PERIOD.
what can i say.hmmmmm.
okay that shows how interesting my life actually is.
i am dreading tmr.
cant wait for this freaking term 3 and term4 to end.
seriously next year i will try to get my ass out of the way.if its possible,that is.
i dont know what to do,being thrown around like a basketball,sometimes infinitely on high and other times scarily upset and frustrated.
i want to stop the fretting.
i want all this bullshit to just stop.
but do i have control?over me,of course.
but on everything and everyone else, i am not too sure,though it is likely that i unfortunately don't
i dont know whats gonna happen after this year cuz 1stly, i dont think i want to go for drama next year(dep class) but if not,i dont want to go for core lit and be just another mediocre student.
oh god do you hear me?i am just CONFUSED.
i feel dread for tmr,didn't i just say that already?
nevermind about those silly emotions.
i just need a good distraction.
i dont want to go for drama and feel that way again.

IT DOESNT WORK THAT WAY,HONEY
thats what my dad just told me.
random.yea.
just looking for something un-serious to laugh about.
that seems to be quite hard.
anyway.not in school today.couldnt drag myself out of bed was very very tired.so my parents saw that it was seriously genuine cuz i couldnt open my eyes(do note my parents are super-against pon-ing school)so i am at home today.
yay.so seeya tmr?will blog again later.

well well.what can i say about tuesday?
quite annoying frankly. i was like grrrrrr for the whole day.
math sup was retarded.thats the truth.
oh and i read a piece of advice on someone's blog.i dont know if its for me but i do find it rather useful.
Here's a little advice: Don't try continuing what you know you can't.
because we know you can't, give it up.
You will never be where we are, and i'm glad you know-
that you're not so liked afterall.
i intended on crediting it but if i am yea,misintepreting it,it would be kinda bad,so well.
just useful stuff.will tell the blogger myself.
so thats it?
you mean just give it up cuz it seems that i am never going to be good enough?you actually think that i am forcing myself to do something that i know its impossible for me to do well in? well kudos to you that you are THERE already.i am definitely NOT there so obviously i am kinda trying to figure things out.
i mean,ok,fine.yes you are alot better(if you meant to write that to me) at alot of stuff than i am and i don't exactly compare that way.
i mean..yea it started to get to me.but well i am glad to know finally that alot of my instincts were kinda right-i wasn't that liked after all.
well,what can i say.you and i are like.....different.
didnt expect myself to be a hot favourite in your books.
if this is any comfort to you,i am putting drama as second choice.
i dont want to be in the same class with people i am miserable being around with cuz of our differences.
i guess i just made someone happy?relieved?
i expect i just did.
i know this is frankly non of my business.
but anyway,
GOODDAY